Thank you for your prayers! I see them at work every day, and I gain the strength from them to carry me through the frustration and disappointment of having a loved one go from good to bad and back again. It’s the “back again” that you have to have faith will happen. It’s during those downturns that you have to pray for grace, patience and the knowledge to do what’s needed to help.
Lea had a largely uneventful day, clinically, but it sure was stressful for me. It’s tough to see her nursing care reduced to a shared status, and to be in her room listening to alarms ringing for half an hour before anyone does anything. I don’t know whether to go out and snag a passing nurse, interrupt Lea’s nurse while she’s taking care of another patient, or exercise patience. When I asked about it, the nurses said to snag anyone of them if I had a concern. So, I’m going to get known as a worry wart, I guess. J
Lea spent five hours on ventilator assist this morning, in which she initiates a breath and the ventilator helps her finish it, if necessary, to make sure she is taking in enough oxygen. She did another four hours this afternoon. During the last hour of this morning’s session, and the last half of this afternoon’s session, she was breathing very hard, heaving her chest to take in a full breath, and working very hard. Her temperature went up during this period, so I kept swabbing her with a cool, wet cloth, and talking to her, giving her encouragement.
She really did very well. I am quite impressed at how hard she works. She has such strong will power, I have faith that she is going to survive. As I try to connect with her by talking to her, reading your messages at her bedside, washing and brushing her hair, rubbing lotion on her, I realize over and over how important it is to let your loved ones know how much you love them, and to talk about the things that are really important to you as a couple.
I recall when my father passed away years ago there were many things unsaid between us, hurt feelings that didn’t get resolved, and many barriers that we permitted to stand between us. When he passed, and the reality that I would never have the chance to resolve those issues really hit me, I was broken hearted. I should have searched for a way to communicate with him and resolve those issues. Now I live with the guilt of knowing that I wouldn’t have let that happen if I had a second chance.
Speaking of second chances your prayers for our friend Joe have worked! He is pretty stable now. The blood in his urine cleared up, his blood pressure has stabilized over the last few days, and he is scheduled to get an aortic defibrillator installed on Monday. If everything goes well, he will be transferred by medical airlift to St. Vincent’s Hospital in Indianapolis on Tuesday, where he will be admitted to the Intensive Care Unit.
Thank you for your continued support. Your prayers are working!
Larry
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March 16, 2007 at 8:33 am
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DAY TWENTY-NINE RESPONSES
FROM: Jo Ann
Aug 13 @ 8:13 PM
Hi You guys. Do you guys remember the problem I had a few years ago?…In small terms my heart exploded and today the only thing that keeps it going is the outer skin holding it all together…Every year I get a ct scan to check the 2″ tear to make sure it hasn’t changed and by the grace of God it remains the same ..a miracle….
I said all of that to say my God is able to do all that I can think or say or enter into the mind of man…..be at peace you are not leaving the hospital alone…..we are praying for Lea and I know my prayers are heard. Just go easy Larry it takes time for the doctors to catch up with what is wrong it really is going to be okay.
Grandma & Grandpa White prayed up a lot of mercy which falls to the grands and so forth all those in line so let your belief in God go and believe him. You have to trust him regardless……..Love you guys… Be well Lea, and by the grace of God be well.
FROM: Renee
Aug 13 @ 8:14 PM
Dear Larry, Scott Bridgman is like a brother to me. We grew up together and he spent a great amount of time at my parent’s farm. He has been sending me your letters since your trauma began. I cried so hard while reading them that I could barely breathe.
I know you don’t know me but I would like to share a part of my life with you that may help you and your precious wife, Lea. First of all I have seen many miracles in my life (although I’m only 35) but there are two that stand out to me more than the others. Maybe I should say that there are two that I feel moved to share with others because I have grown so much from them.
You see, you are growing now too. Every road that we take comes with stop signs, yield signs, go signs, and sometimes no signs to lead us. It is at those times when there are no signs that we grow the most. You are there with no signs right now but believe me when I say… No, I promise you that you are not alone here and you have more help than you’ll ever know that you can’t even see.
Trust that you are on the right path in your life right now…exactly where you and Lea are supposed to be. When it feels like it’s too much, Let go and Let God. Anyway, my two stories. I will try to keep it brief so that I don’t write you a book…..
I have 5, yes 5 children. I really wanted a boy. I had a daughter in 93, a daughter in 95, and became pregnant with twins in 1997. I was elated to hear I was having twins. One boy and one girl. In my ninth month of pregnancy I found out my son died. The pain of his death put me into labor.
I gave birth to my stillborn son and a beautiful baby girl. She is now 7. In 2000 I was pregnant again. I was trying to sleep one night when I began sobbing so hard with fear that I may loose that baby too. I suddenly had this overwhelming peace run from my toes to the top of my head when I began praying for the life of my unborn child.
I was told at that moment that I was not to worry…..THEY would be ok this time. For twenty weeks I had doctors tell me that it was impossible for me to have twins again naturally. I was 20 1/2 weeks along when I went into the same ultrasound room where I was told two years earlier that my son was dead. In that same very room I found out that I was indeed pregnant again with twins.
On January 14, 2001 I gave birth to two healthy baby BOYS!!!! They are four and a half now and so precious. When I used to lay on my sons grave in 1998 wanting to die because I hurt so bad, I never knew then that not even three years later I would give birth to twin boys. I’m so glad I didn’t give up. My lesson to you from this story is that I don’t want you two to give up.
The other story I have for you is more recent. On December 21 (four days before Christmas) of last year, I was driving my mini-van with my six year old daughter and my twin boys. I hit black ice. We rolled my vehicle at least three times and totaled it. My daughter and I had seat belts on and my boys were in their car seats.
After it finally stopped, we crawled out the back hatch which was the only way out. We all were taken buy two ambulances to Blessing Hospital. The boys didn’t even get one scratch, and my daughter had a tiny scratch. I had whiplash and a bloody nose from the air bag. Everyone that has seen my mini van can’t believe we are alive yet alone not really injured.
The most awesome part of this story is that one of my twin boys told everyone there on the scene that helped us as well as the paramedics that he saw an angel and she helped us. The last thing I said before we rolled was God please… my kids. Everyone knows my son did see an angel that day. I know that a three year old could never make that up.
You see, God used the most innocent of us to see his miracle so that we as humans would believe he was there. I already knew he was because even before my son said that, I knew we should have died. Your lesson from this story is don’t only believe in the things you see, there is so much there you don’t see that’s going on too. You can learn a lot from my experiences just like I did.
I believe you when you said you were told she died before any of this ever happened. I don’t know exactly what you were to learn from that message. Maybe it was meant to make you stronger in your beliefs so you could handle what was to come. Prepare you maybe. Let you know there is something greater out there and that you’re not alone.
Lea has to be strong now and make her own decisions of how she wants to get through this. You will be ok. Just keep letting her know you are there and how much you love her. Your story has touched my life and I wish you both love and God’s love and compassion.
I hope my stories help you. I will keep praying for you both although I already know God is there. I already see him there in your letters. It’s amazing what you can see when you open your eyes….your spiritual eyes, not human ones. God Bless you Larry and your precious Lea. Love through Christ, Renee and children: Ashley, Emily, Brandi, Austin, and Evan
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